
Yep, that's right...we gave back the binky. After lots of tears, for me and for Lyla, we decided to surrender to the sleeplessness and give back the pacifier. I gave it all I had (as I am not one to give in easily), but we were not making progress. She never found her fist or thumb to suck on, therefore could not get to sleep except through exhaustion (even when I held and rocked her she was crying because she didn't know how to fall asleep). I kept telling myself that lots of kids don't need to suck to get to sleep, she'll learn after a couple more days...but things were not getting better, they were actually getting worse. Lyla was getting to sleep okay, after rather minimal fussing, but couldn't stay asleep because she was overtired and/or wasn't transitioning through sleep cycles (many of us moms call it the 45 minute intruder). Then the whole process would start over again...adding up to lots of inconsolable crying and tiredness. So, now I am praying that God would continue to light my path in the direction we should go. Do I just continue to play "the binky game" until she has found her hands and has more muscle control in a couple months? Do I play "the binky game" until she can keep it in her mouth better, and replace it herself when it falls out? Maybe I should switch brands of binkies and see if that helps. Ugh! Defeat. I have surrendered to the binky for now, but we'll just have to see who wins this war! (Oh, I should mention that I gave her the binky in the middle of the night, and she slept for six hours last night without me needing to replace it...so maybe she still made some strides toward self soothing during this whole process??)
